LOVE IS ALL. I love @lindsey_joy. YL oiler. #beatsforbeckham #hudsonbehr #DTID #youngliving #hellowellness
Well, it was time. I was warned it would happen, but I still wasn't convinced it would. Sure enough, a couple of days ago my hair started falling out. Like a lot. Like run your hands through your hair and get a handful, a lot. So I sent a message to my besties and they said "tell us when and we'll be there." So tonight we had a shave your head party. It's amazing how doing something scary with people you love can become less scary, and even fun. Today I'm grateful for friends and family that surround us with love.
I'm done with the first cycle of chemo. As expected, my white blood cell count is down and my immune system is pretty weak. So I'm basically quarantined right now. I'm staying away from big crowds and trying to stay healthy before we begin the second cycle on Monday. My nausea is currently under control, but I'm definitely feeling the fatigue. It's a struggle between taking a nap or getting good sleep at night. Can't really do both. Next week will be long and hard, I'm sure, but we're ready to take it on.
Wow. I'm coming up for air. Been drowning in a sea of nausea and I can't believe I'm actually feeling some relief. It literally knocked me out for 3 days straight. I couldn't think, I could hardly eat, and we tried every single thing we could to help it. FINALLY, on Monday when I went in for this week's infusion, I requested a different medicine. Although it took all day to get it, in the end, it brought the relief I needed to feel functional again. The nausea was so bad I could not even look at my phone, so for those of you who sent messages or tried to call, just know that's why you didn't hear from me.
I felt like I accomplished something on Friday by completing the first infusion week, and then as soon as we got home I got knocked out and felt utterly defeated. But, a friend who's been through this reminded me that I did accomplish something big and will continue to do so each day until the treatment is over. Thanks for all of the love sent our way. I hope everyone had a happy 4th of July!
So I've made it through three days of chemo infusion. The first couple of days seemed to go by ok. But today was a little different. Thankfully I haven't had any bad side effects yet, but I guess it could be too early still. I did start to feel a little more fatigued. I even knocked out during my treatment. 😴😂 (thanks for the photo @lindsey_joy)
Today also felt a little heavier with tears coming and going through out the day. It's overwhelming to think of everything that's happening. It's the weirdest thing to be in a room hooked up to an IV pumping you full of drugs yet not feeling sick, but also knowing that the inside of your body is wreaking havoc. And then, to think that I could go through all of this and it could all come back at some point. I'm a pretty positive guy if you haven't noticed, but today this all caught up to me. Still, I choose to hold on to hope, and take courage again.
I got a bit of a second wind to help with bedtime tonight. Hudsie let me read him a book and that made my heart feel so good. I'm so grateful for all of our friends and family that have helped this week by taking care of him during my treatments. I just want to be around to read him stories every night he lets me.
If you have to go potty, STOP, and go right away. Flush, and wash, and be on your way. - Daniel Tiger
First day of infusion is well under way. 😂
Today I'm grateful. I'm not grateful for cancer, #fuckcancer. I'm grateful for the chance to fight cancer. I know not everyone gets this chance.
Every step of the way I can't stop thinking about my little Beckham and everything he went through. Open heart surgery has to be the worst thing ever. He didn't have a choice but to be brave and strong. I carry his spirit in me. 💙🦊 I'm also grateful for best friends who buy you dog tags to remind you that you are not alone, AND pink #fuckcancer bracelets. 👊🏼
So I had an appointment for a second opinion with a chemo oncologist at UT Southwestern on Wednesday. Lindsey and I really liked the hospital system and we have decided to begin treatment through them this coming Monday. I had a breathing test to check the base line of my lungs yesterday morning as well as a outpatient surgery to install a mediport that will be used for chemo/labs/blood transfusion if necessary, etc. I opted for that instead of needing to have an IV everyday that I go in for chemo. The plan is for me to have 3 cycles of chemo. Each cycle lasts 3 weeks. So a total of 9 weeks of misery and hell await me. That's sort of what the doctor said on Wednesday, except in more professional words. It was a good appointment, but also a hard dose of reality as to what I'm getting myself into. Lindsey and I are both having an inner struggle with it all because we know there are more natural/holistic options that are just out of our reach financially and practically, and that sucks. But, we've made the decision to go down this road and we will be researching all the ways to detox and support my body naturally and holistically in hopes that we can lessen the effects of the chemo on my body.
Thank you so much for all of your kind words, prayers, positive vibes, love and support! 🙏🏼
Here's to being cancer free by the end of summer!👊🏼
After a week of fun and excitement with so many friends at the 2017 Young Living Convention in Utah, we're back in Dallas facing the reality of cancer. We've had multiple appointments with multiple doctors and it looks like we're finally figuring out the treatment. It seems like no matter which road you take, there's no avoiding the path of pain and suffering. Wouldn't it be nice if we could just find a shortcut here and there? If there's anything we've learned over the last few years is that you have to walk through the pain and suffering in order to come out alive and kicking on the other side. Fortunately, we're surrounded with so many friends and family that are not afraid to walk with us.
P.S. We LOVE our #hellowellness team!
P.S.S. This was during the @carrieunderwood private concert which was awesome!
I love her SO MUCH. 😍
Planting lavender with #hudsonbehr. I thought trips would get easier and easier, but this little busy body is discovering that he can do things on his own and does not need any help. I love his curiosity, and his stubbornness, even if it makes my job a little more difficult. I hope he grows to appreciate the earth and the life that comes from it. #ylconvention#yleo#hellowellness