become a possibilitarian.
no matter how dark things may seem to be
or actually are
raise your sights and see
always seem them
for they are always there. -NVP
These past couple of weeks have been a trip. A rollercoaster ride. One day all I can do is cry and the next all I can do is smile and the next all I can do is go to the mountains and scream and then write it all out.
Day 1 of my breaking I turned to my best girl @katestrongworld and said WHAT IS HAPPENING!! I FEEL LIKE IM GOING CRAZY. .
She simply said 'hold on sis, hold on so tight. And then when you feel you can let go a bit, wait 48 hours until you do.' .
Every time intense emotions come over my body I remember that moment. Keep holding on. That's the only way to get past the pain. You can't jump off a rollercoaster in the middle without getting extremely hurt or dying. Same with life. That's not the point, jumping off. .
The point is holding on. Holding on when you're in the slums feels like the hardest thing you could ever think of doing. TRUST ME. I get it. ME TOO!
But usually if it feels like the hardest thing you could ever do, then it's exactly what needs to be done.
If you're feeling pain, I promise you, YOU ARE NOT ALONE. .
Im gonna tell you a life hack: Reach out, find your goddesses the ones who love you because of your pain and ruin. The ones who know you are good enough, worth it. The ones who have been there too, maybe not in the same way but the ones who have felt pain in their own way and can empathize with your pain. Surround yourself with those goddesses.
Cohen is so dope
he throws love around like it's confetti
that's my favorite thing about him.
And when you get a kid who finds these epic shades just for his mama and requests a pic in them, then you know you've really hit the jackpot ✨
Your vision will become clear
only when you look
into your own heart.
Who looks outside--
Who looks inside--
Be a warrior for love.
You will learn a lot from yourself
if you stretch in the direction
CS & KR
How you love yourself
is how you teach others
to love you.
Yoga is like life.
Think of that yoga pose that you struggle with, that pose that lets your shadow win every time. Some days you go into a practice and you feel so confident that you are going to nail it today! Then you get to that pose that feels a bit uncomfortable- and your teacher suddenly encourages you to hold, and keep holding that pose and keep breathing. You start out strong, ' I could do this for hours' then a few breaths later you hear a little voice saying 'you are getting tired, come out, just take a small break, you aren't strong enough to breathe through this discomfort, come on, there is always tomorrow.' my life coach, calls that little voice your Shadow.
You always have this little shadow voice following you around, telling you to give in. To take a break, you'll finish next time.
Quiet that voice.
Step outside of your own light for a moment
Stand inside your own darkness
your shadow cannot find you there.
Let your own darkness succumb you.
And then step back into your light and rise like a phoenix from the ash.
I few posts ago I wrote about some books I have been reading and the lessons they are teaching me, especially about loving yourself, the power it takes to be vulnerable and the power vulnerability gives back to you. A few people have asked what I've been reading, so here's part of my answer ✌🏼❤️
Brene Brown. Daring greatly. .
'You either walk inside your story and own it or you stand outside your story and hustle for your worthiness.' #brenebrown#darlinggreatly
If you haven't had the chance to read Brene Brown, try it!
She's so wise. She teaches about shame and the 'hustle for worthiness', meaning we all want to fit in, for people to like us- sometimes we attach ourselves to the idea of what that might look like that we lose our true sense of self. We turn into chameleons, hustling for everyone else- we forget how much worthiness we already possess without anyone else's approval.
Here's another thing I'm learning, the universe really does have my back. There is a Brene Brown, Darling Greatly workshop in SLC on June 24 and I'm going!!!! 📸: @owenskylie 😻
A dear friend once said to me 'You are so radiant.
If you ever doubt yourself
look in the mirror
at your captivating eyes.' Today is a good day, I feel good about Kenzi. I love her today, I think she's beautiful.
But sometimes- like last night, I was struggling to find that self love, I was mad at everything. My mind was spinning, I was trying to grab at anything outside of me- people, food, work, sleep, books, tv, my phone, cleaning. Thinking 'what's the quickest way to make these feelings go away?' I wanted to lash out- cause that's what I'm good at, I wanted something or someone to stand through those vulnerable feelings with me because I was afraid to face them with myself.
But in a moment of clarity I remembered the above statement and I ran to the mirror in my bedroom and I stared into my own eyes and told myself 'I love you.' Until I trusted myself again.
Brene Brown says that it's in the small moments that we build trust, not the big momentous events. She's right, and this includes trust in yourself too. It's in those small moments, like last night, where we learn to trust ourselves, and learn to love ourselves.
In self love the question in our mind transforms from 'what's the quickest way to make these feelings go away?' To 'What are these feelings and where did they come from?' Connect with yourself, trust yourself, you will love who you are, I promise ✌🏼❤️