Jessica Graf @jessicagraf

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Part 2: I watched him deteriorate even further and realized if I had delayed the appointment our Saturday afternoon walk would still have been his last and he would have had to endure horrible pain. I was finally at peace with my decision. Beau went to heaven peacefully surrounded by his family in his own home.

I am obsessed with Beau. I adopted him my last semester in Waco while at Baylor and he's been with me through countless life stages, several cross country moves, and 8 different houses. He was my constant in a sea of change and because of him I never felt I endured any big life changes alone. He's the first face I'd see every morning and the one I'd have to move to the side out of the middle of the bed every night. As a lover of cooking, he was my constant companion in the kitchen and made spending hours there feel like a party and a lot less messy with his mop-like tongue and garbage disposing abilities. Even attempting to explain our relationship and what he means to me feels like I'm trivializing it. My words cannot do him justice.

Beau, I cannot wait to see you again. Thank you for being my best friend, protector, listener, entertainer, and confidant. You left a giant hole in my life that I know will not be filled in. You will always be my one and only Bunny, Beau Beau, Officer, Bug, Muffin, Bubba, and Turkey. I know you're once again able to enjoy your beloved breads in heaven. Save some carb-free ones for me. #beauthelabrador
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Part 2: I watched him deteriorate even further and realized if I had delayed the appointment our Saturday afternoon walk would still have been his last and he would have had to endure horrible pain. I was finally at peace with my decision. Beau went to heaven peacefully surrounded by his family in his own home. I am obsessed with Beau. I adopted him my last semester in Waco while at Baylor and he's been with me through countless life stages, several cross country moves, and 8 different houses. He was my constant in a sea of change and because of him I never felt I endured any big life changes alone. He's the first face I'd see every morning and the one I'd have to move to the side out of the middle of the bed every night. As a lover of cooking, he was my constant companion in the kitchen and made spending hours there feel like a party and a lot less messy with his mop-like tongue and garbage disposing abilities. Even attempting to explain our relationship and what he means to me feels like I'm trivializing it. My words cannot do him justice. Beau, I cannot wait to see you again. Thank you for being my best friend, protector, listener, entertainer, and confidant. You left a giant hole in my life that I know will not be filled in. You will always be my one and only Bunny, Beau Beau, Officer, Bug, Muffin, Bubba, and Turkey. I know you're once again able to enjoy your beloved breads in heaven. Save some carb-free ones for me. #beauthelabrador

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These are the days I've been dreading since that January day in 2009 when I met Beau. On Saturday evening I had to help send Beau to heaven.

In early March we found out Beau was in the final stage of renal failure. We were completely devastated as we soon learned about everything that accompanies this horrible disease. Beau's disease was completely out of my hands as there is nothing that can be done for dogs with renal failure. I remember recalling a line from my favorite movie, Steel Magnolias, and wishing I had that option.

Clairee: "Ouiser, nobody pays any attention to you."
Ouiser: "But I feel bad, Clairee. I'm a terrible person."
Clairee: "No, you're not. You'd give your dog a kidney if he needed one." Watching Beau deteriorate so quickly in his last week and a half was torturous for both of us, and by late Saturday morning I knew he couldn't continue on in this way and I couldn't watch him. But my vet and others who have experienced this disease said Beau would let me know when it was time, and I just wasn't sure he had told me yet. I only knew I couldn't live with myself if I put him through agony to get through Easter, so I made the call for the in-home euthanasia appointment for that evening. Beau still rallied to greet people and for his daily walk, so that afternoon we slowly went on our now shortened walk. When it came time to turn back and go home, Beau made it clear he wanted to continue on his usual walk with the destination being the park. I was hesitant to put him through such a long walk given his state, but after a long break I listened to him and we headed to the park. We spent the next hour there sitting under a pine tree, loving on each other and enjoying the smells, breeze, the sound of the birds and watching kids play at a birthday party. Beau once again rallied to make the slow walk home and collapsed five feet into the house where he stayed for the next five hours until the vet arrived. We spent that afternoon cuddling, retelling our favorite stories, praying, and sharing kisses.
Part 2 continued in second post #beauthelabrador
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These are the days I've been dreading since that January day in 2009 when I met Beau. On Saturday evening I had to help send Beau to heaven. In early March we found out Beau was in the final stage of renal failure. We were completely devastated as we soon learned about everything that accompanies this horrible disease. Beau's disease was completely out of my hands as there is nothing that can be done for dogs with renal failure. I remember recalling a line from my favorite movie, Steel Magnolias, and wishing I had that option. Clairee: "Ouiser, nobody pays any attention to you." Ouiser: "But I feel bad, Clairee. I'm a terrible person." Clairee: "No, you're not. You'd give your dog a kidney if he needed one." Watching Beau deteriorate so quickly in his last week and a half was torturous for both of us, and by late Saturday morning I knew he couldn't continue on in this way and I couldn't watch him. But my vet and others who have experienced this disease said Beau would let me know when it was time, and I just wasn't sure he had told me yet. I only knew I couldn't live with myself if I put him through agony to get through Easter, so I made the call for the in-home euthanasia appointment for that evening. Beau still rallied to greet people and for his daily walk, so that afternoon we slowly went on our now shortened walk. When it came time to turn back and go home, Beau made it clear he wanted to continue on his usual walk with the destination being the park. I was hesitant to put him through such a long walk given his state, but after a long break I listened to him and we headed to the park. We spent the next hour there sitting under a pine tree, loving on each other and enjoying the smells, breeze, the sound of the birds and watching kids play at a birthday party. Beau once again rallied to make the slow walk home and collapsed five feet into the house where he stayed for the next five hours until the vet arrived. We spent that afternoon cuddling, retelling our favorite stories, praying, and sharing kisses. Part 2 continued in second post #beauthelabrador

With my boy at one of his favorite places #beauthelabrador #labsofinsta #dogsofinsta
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With my boy at one of his favorite places #beauthelabrador #labsofinsta #dogsofinsta

As Beau's most used nickname is Bunny, we thought we had to take photos with our bunny ears for Easter. Okay, I thought we had to take photos- Beau not so much #beauthelabrador #labsofinsta #dogsofinsta #happyeaster
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As Beau's most used nickname is Bunny, we thought we had to take photos with our bunny ears for Easter. Okay, I thought we had to take photos- Beau not so much #beauthelabrador #labsofinsta #dogsofinsta #happyeaster

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When your mom tries to get photos of you in front of the neighbor's wild flowers but you have sensitive eyes #beauthelabrador #dogsofinsta #labsofinsta
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When your mom tries to get photos of you in front of the neighbor's wild flowers but you have sensitive eyes #beauthelabrador #dogsofinsta #labsofinsta

Beau had a bone-in New York steak for dinner. I did not #beauthelabrador #dogsofinsta #labsofinsta
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Beau had a bone-in New York steak for dinner. I did not #beauthelabrador #dogsofinsta #labsofinsta

Celebrated 1 year keto today with my favorite dish at my favorite Mexican restaurant. And yes, I still skipped the chips and tortillas :)
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Pro tip - Ask for veggies instead of rice and beans. Most restaurants won't even bat an eye
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#keto #ketosis #ketogenic #lchf #atkins #banting #lowcarb
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Celebrated 1 year keto today with my favorite dish at my favorite Mexican restaurant. And yes, I still skipped the chips and tortillas :) . Pro tip - Ask for veggies instead of rice and beans. Most restaurants won't even bat an eye . #keto #ketosis #ketogenic #lchf #atkins #banting #lowcarb

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Happy 10th birthday, Beau! I am so blessed to have had you in my life the last 8+ years. My life would not be nearly as sweet without you in it, my best friend, protector, and confidant. #beauthelabrador #labsofinsta #dogsofinsta
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Happy 10th birthday, Beau! I am so blessed to have had you in my life the last 8+ years. My life would not be nearly as sweet without you in it, my best friend, protector, and confidant. #beauthelabrador #labsofinsta #dogsofinsta

Happy #nationalpuppyday to the biggest puppy I know! Love you, Beau! 😘🐶 #beauthelabrador
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Happy #nationalpuppyday to the biggest puppy I know! Love you, Beau! 😘🐶 #beauthelabrador

Always my sous chef! #beauthelabrador #dogsofinsta #labsofinsta
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Always my sous chef! #beauthelabrador #dogsofinsta #labsofinsta

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Cooking for Beau creates way more dishes than cooking for myself #beauthelabrador #highmaintenancedog #notlowcarb
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Cooking for Beau creates way more dishes than cooking for myself #beauthelabrador #highmaintenancedog #notlowcarb

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