I'm so sorry for everything and I hope you can forgive me for all I've said and done because I didn't seek your forgiveness for so many years. I was too arrogant. I wasn't patient with you. I was always angry with you. And you went away so quietly and so suddenly that I couldn't say sorry which is my biggest regret that I have to live with, and I do love you despite everything. I hope you're not hurting anymore. I hope you're doing okay.