One month passed, feel like a year passed. Lot of tears and unexpectedly I smiled sometimes. I talked and hugged with so many people that I did not expect. My right hand even felt so tired after shaking hand with over 300 people in the Memorial Service. There was Full of Love and Support on 22 Jul. I hope that's the enough for us to go on.
The day came and we got over. Some decision was difficult to make and the action needed a very strong reason to support. I felt that I had to protect my families and no one else can do. All in a sudden, I did that, my tears ran out and you were looking and smiling at me from the photo.
I know, I will know, i will take care and protect everyone on behalf of you. That was a heartbreaking goodbye and I will meet you again. Goodbye, 媽, 我最好的媽媽。
Tomorrow will be the day to say goodbye officially. I am too logical in mind and I always believe that you have already left us without saying a "Goodbye". A cold body without heartbeat is not you. Your words, your touch, your face, your tears, your smile .... will live in my heart forever. Please give us bravery and wisdom to live our new life without you.
Same sky, just the feeling is a little different now. I can understand that Our life must go on and everything will be fine sooner or later. I still can't feel that you won't come back to us again. We cooked the food you stored and prepared for us in the kitchen before and we ate them all as normal. When we finished we threw the trash into the bin. All friends around me are saying that I am too calm and I don't know why I still can live like normal everyday and take care everyone. Is that the way you want me to?